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    Congratulations, Grace, on your wonderful news. At the same Congratulations, Grace, on your wonderful news. At the same time, so sorry for you losses. Life!!!

    Thank you for your very articulate post on subjects so personal. Both thought-provoking and inspirational.

    I, too, remember the day long sessions with my teacher. More life lessons than music lessons. These teachers, and there are legion, give so much to their students. The practicing and a voice from another room (usually the kitchen) correcting gently is an especially wonderful memory.

    Thanks again for sharing your thoughts and for rekindling some wondeful memories from my own musical life. Cheers, a

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    Thanks, Anthony, for your wonderful words and wishes!

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